Working the Steps - A new start

I have decided that I am going to work the steps using the workbook but I a different way. Rather than writing my thoughts in the book I am going to record them in this blog. So each day I will take a new question from the workbook enter it into my blog and then record my answer. It may take some time to work through the steps but it will probably be faster than how I have been proceeding up until now. So today is my first entry from the workbook.

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Step One - We admitted that we were powerless over food - that our lives had become unmanageable.

"In OA we are encouraged to take a good look at our compulsive eating, obesity, and the self-destructive things we have done to avoid obesity -- the dieting, starving, over-exercising or purging." Here is a first-step inventory of my eating history.

I don't know when my overeating got so out of control but looking at my life I know that food has always been the center of my life. I have tried diets and programs with good success if I stayed on program. My most successful diet was when I did it on my own - great loss, great feeling. I was hoping for a different result in my heart health - and when it didn't come I lost my interest and commitment.

I was called FR in college (short for Fat Rog) and could only win the Lunch Mouth Award in high school- not a particular noble prize. But I chased it for some recognition. Pretty pathetic.

My wife and I worked very hard in 1984 to lose weight before we went to Europe to visit Dominique and her family. We both looked good and the sex was the best we ever had. Once the weight came back the sex dried up. And then when the marriage feel apart - well it didn't matter anymore did it.

But that isn't what I am suppose to be writing about here am I.