Made the call for a sponsor

It has taken me over six months to call someone to be a sponsor. Maybe it's the first move to the second step - Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. But why was I so reluctant to make this decision?

1. I am afraid to turn over my life to someone else even if its only a little bit.
2. I am afraid that they will have expectations that I can't achieve.
3. I am afraid that I can't do what they want.
4. I am afraid that I will lose some of the things I love to eat.
5. I am afraid to be accountable.
6. I am afraid that if I will have to share why more than I am willing to share.
7. I am afraid that I will have to give up some other things in my addictive behavior that I want to keep.
8. I am afraid that I will be judged

I wanted to make this list at least 12 but honestly can't think of any other things I should be including - that's probably my own fault because I am sure there are a lot of other fears that I haven't identified.

So with a sponsor maybe I can really begin the journey instead of meandering.