Step One - Question 1b

Step One - We admitted that we were powerless over food - that our lives had become unmanageable.

b. How have I used excess food to escape life's problem?

Let me count the ways:

I think it partially cost my marriage, may relationship with a person that I loved at one time, and my career..

Did I eat because I was (am) unhappy or was I unhappy because I was (am) so overweight? I think that is the cycle - and the answer is elusive. All I know is that my weight became a problem in my sexual relationship with various partners, that obsession with food became consuming (that's an ironic word to use in this instance). And when the relationship fouled the rest of my life seemed to foul too. So this program will break the cycle - either I will (I said lose but I know that isn't right) be able to control this compulsion, so that I can learn to focus on things that are more important than the food.