After sex, eating is the most pleasurable thing that I have ever experienced physically. Certainly there are more emotional things - hugging my children, watching them succeed or show joy, being with a person that I love, even feeling the empathetic hurt and pain of someone when they tell how their lives are in a shambles. But for pure physical and emotional pleasure, eating , with the senses engaged is an incredible feeling.
Being a compulsive overeater means that I have succumbed to something that has taken over my focus. It means that food rules me, that I don't have the power to control my own desires.
There is a concept in religion called Ruling Love - that we all have a Ruling Love. That ruling love will be the most important thing in our lives and will shape everything we do, every decision we make. If food is our Ruling Love then we would sacrifice everything else to fulfill that love. For some the ruling love is wealth, for others it is another person, and for others it may be power. Every action that a person makes will be first to satisfy that Ruling Love, placing it above all other options. Supplanting that Ruling Love is not easy and does require awareness and hard work and relying on something else to guide through. That is why I am compulsive overeater because I believe that my Ruling Love has been eating and food.
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