Sunday, April 10, 2011

2.4 In what ways have I continued to try to find comfort in excess food, long after it began to cause me misery?

Psychologically I can see there is a euphoria from eating, especially foods I like. That first bite of a very rich dessert, homemade bread, or a well seasoned piece of beef is fantastic. The second bite is good but not as good as the first. Each succeeding bite the intensity and the flavors diminish to the point that by time that last bite is eaten it has become almost mundane. My daughter is a person who can get so much enjoyment from one bite of food - but once the flavor has diminished she no longer feels a need to eat. Often she will leave 80% of her meal uneaten because she has what she wanted from it - a taste and a fullness.
Myself on the other hand find that instead of accepting that the second, third and fourth bites of something (or serving of something) will not taste as rich and flavorful as the first bite and stop when I have reached fullness, continue to eat until its all gone. stopping just isn't part of my nature so I eat beyond fullness, beyond comfort.

One other factor that plays into this is that the results of overeating may not be felt until several hours later when reflux happens, heart burn and even inhalation from the reflux. When I was eating enough to feed a family of four I would often get reflux that I would inhale, causing a miserable night of coughing, rasping and discomfort. Since I have been able to control my eating I feel better able to avoid the reflux discomfort.

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