Step 1 - Come on Back!

I had a good day/bad day yesterday.

Good was that I took myself back to the meeting and I was able to share with the group one of my motivations for looking at OA to make changes. There was a speaker (Jim) who had been very heavy in early 2000's and has lost a considerable amount of weight. I liked his sharing because it was honest about how easy it is to get back into compulsive Overeating.

Bad was that I came home from the meeting and did what I always do late at night. Nothing was safe in the kitchen. I feel like that before I commit to this I need to 'bulk up' - try to get it out of my system before it can overtake me. Yet the problem with that wrong headed thinking is that it isn't getting rid of anything - only making things progress to the negative.

I ordered the Overeaters Anonymous Workbook and the little brown book (with all the personal sharings) via Amazon. It may be that I should have bought from the OA group but this seemed more private. (here I am putting it in to writing so I don't know why I wanted privacy - CO logic.)

That's it for now.