9. Have I made an honest appraisal of my experience and am I convinced that I can't handle life through self-will alone? Explain.

I think the answer is obvious - I haven't been able to will myself to control so many things. But that isn't what the question asks - it really is asking have you come to a conclusion, that is, become convinced. Although the answer is obvious that I haven't been able to handle things with self-will, if I remain deluded that I may someday attain that will, then I haven't convinced myself (or anyone else). The short answer is that I need help if I am ever going to handle the impacts in my life.

The other part of the question is whether I have made an honest appraisal of my experience - I think I have been honest about my experiences with trying to control my addiction. There does seem to be something weak about not having the will to handle stress without turning to food - to bingeing. And with God's help maybe I will be able to get to that place.