I feel like I am in control usually but sometimes I let it all go ... even when I know that I am full and don't need to eat anymore. So what is it that I am feeling at that time?
1. Anxious = not about the food but about some other stimulus - lack of purpose. I feel like I am sleep walking sometimes - going through life waiting for something to happen but not doing anything to make things happen.
2. bored - sometimes when I am not being active or engaged into something I will find myself migrating to the frig/stove/shelf. I have reduced my wheat floured cravings somewhat. I haven't made bread since the first of the year - even though I have been investigating how to make a good baguette.
3. lost hope - I have dreamed that by losing weight and getting my mind in a better place that I can find a new life - one that I can share with someone. and when I get to a place where I lose that dream I feel begin to feel sorry for myself and will start to binge. It doesn't matter anyway if I am fat, unhealthy or unattractive.
4. lost confidence - when I weigh myself and find that I haven't lost or even gained, well it just seems like its waste of time and I begin to binge.
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